Here.

"My backbone is paper thin."

I'm emptying out my room, which is quite appropriate for the current state of mind I'm in. I guess I'm emptying out my brain too, to an extent. Taking everything out, analyzing it, and either keeping it or discarding it and accepting how it will affect everything, and the effect it will have. Because I can only sift through the same things for so long. This could be the shift.

I hate how with some people I fall for the same tricks I always have. Keeping me out of the loop, so everything just gets tangled. The inside of my mind is just knots of string and electrical cords. I'm like a robot. I wish I could just say what I mean. Take it or leave it. But I can't. I really wish there was an easy solution to everything. But that will never happen.

I don't know why I'm keeping to myself so much, lately. Sorry. I just don't know what to do. 

I need an epiphany.